We went to the community Memorial Day service yesterday, and Daughter was obviously distressed. I thought she was thinking about her grandparents, but as we talked following the services, it was her Birth Brother that was on her mind. He's in the military. Once again, she's wanting to make contact with her birth family.
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The last conversation with her birth mother resulted in a 3 psychiatric hospitalizations over the next couple of months. She wrote 2 letters to BB at that time, but he never responded. Psychiatrist has told her she needs to go a year without having a psychotic episode before she attempts contact again. Up until yesterday, she'd seem willing to accept no contact ever with any of them. Just looking at pictures a couple of months ago was enough to send her into a deep downward spiral.
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Yesterday was a down day for her. She was back to lying and not completing tasks. They're gong to have Sub all this week at the gift shop, which is slightly concerning to her. She also just doesn't do well with a completely unstructured day. She wanted to invite people over for a party yesterday-- she asked to do that late yesterday morning. I explained that wasn't something she could do at the last minute. It turned into a frustrating day for both of us.
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I'm very much aware that June 9th will be the first anniversary of Mom's death. A picture of Dad with Daughter and Short Niece taken a year ago has stirred up many memories. They were all so happy that day. It is a precious picture that I treasure. It is a gray, rainy day today. Hopefully a return to routine and a busy day will be good for both of us.
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