Daughter is still in bed. I slept in until 8:00 this morning, and I called Daughter when I got out of the shower a few minutes ago. She said okay, but hasn't moved. She went to bed at 8:00 yesterday evening, so she's in bed almost 14 hours. Was she up eating through the night? I don't know. I know she wasn't up to go to the bathroom, as this morning her bedroom smells of caulk and urine. I don't think I can sing to her today. I'm still frustrated with her.
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There's some anger, but the larger emotions are sadness and fear for her. How am I supposed to figure out her insulin when I don't know what she's eating? How can I keep her safe from herself? I'm going to examine the pantry doors more closely, and see if I can buy some door alarms to put on them. I don't know if I'll be able to attach door alarms because of they way they are designed. I'm not sure the door alarms would wake me up with my c-pap going, but they might slow Daughter down a bit. That's the hope, anyway.
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I need to finish a sermon, fill pill boxes, and clean the windows and put everything away today. Will I get any help from Daughter? Probably not. One of the women from the church is coming to pick her up to go walking at 11:00 today. That will be good for both of us.
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Wacky idea:
Could you convert a nearby cupboard to a locked pantry or maybe even renovate (could you get a grant?)to build a locked pantry, with a fridgerator inside it then alarm the secured pantry with an outside alarm company (would generate a log of "breakins" - day or night - and they would phone you.
This may seem a bit extreme but you have a big problem. I would even consider putting some of your daughter's allowance (if she has one) towards the alarm contract.
PS. Have you had her vision (retina) and kidney function (blood work) assessed recently? These kinds of serious glucose surges will start to cause serious problems in other organs and you might want to know where you stand now.
How about bunking in the kitchen for awhile? That way, you can thwart your DD when she gets all cat burglar lock picking in the middle of the night.
Or you could put an alarm on her bedroom door.
Seems like she's bored and she needs a challenge. This isn't about "keeping her safe from food;" she's smart enough to know that you can't possibly shadow her every moment. Ultimately the responsibility is up to her. Her boredom and resentment over her limitations is making her play games with you.
How about bunking in the kitchen for awhile? That way, you can thwart your DD when she gets all cat burglar lock picking in the middle of the night.
Or you could put an alarm on her bedroom door.
Seems like she's bored and she needs a challenge. This isn't about "keeping her safe from food;" she's smart enough to know that you can't possibly shadow her every moment. Ultimately the responsibility is up to her. Her boredom and resentment over her limitations is making her play games with you.
Anonymous has a really good point.
She knows that she has to make good choices, but her mental illness is overwhelming that survival instinct.
Sue,
There are some possibilities, but none of them are easy. Her blood work has all been good, her retinas are in good shape and so are her kidneys. She's already taking medication to help protect her kidneys. Her average blood sugars haven't been too bad.
Anonymous,
I did consider sleeping in the kitchen. A couple of problems: I need my sleep, and the days of sleeping well on the floor are just a distant memory. I don't want to escalate, and present her with a new challenge.
Part of the issue is she has been hungry because she was getting too much insulin. I'm cutting back on the insulin, so hopefully that will help with the hunger.
Thanks, all for your suggestions.
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