Gray Day

Today is a gray, rainy day, which matches my mood. I was going to go to City for a hospital visit, but have decided that higher priority needs to be getting ready for worship Sunday morning. I want to be well prepared for my first Sunday back, and I know that it gets harder to do the later it gets in the week.

Niece, who is almost 5, is having a very hard time. She has lost 2 grandparents and 2 pets since June. She won't use toilet paper now, because it has a pretty pattern on it and she can't stand to flush it down the toilet. She won't use paper napkins for the same reason-- they are too pretty to throw away. She won't open and eat her yogurt and apple sauce at school, because she'd have to throw the tops in the trash. She's also having some panic attacks.

Sister has contacted hospice about grief support groups for children. In comparison, Daughter and I are doing well, but that doesn't mean it's easy. Cat has been very affectionate. I think he senses my grief, and is seeking to comfort me. I have a full spectrum light, and I'm going to sit under it this afternoon as I work on worship plans....